i died again and again~

Rip off 02 : this time around 'Again and Again'
i literally died a couple of times this few weeks,
first time with Brett replying my tweet (gosh...the adrenaline rush for 10 secs or so)
^ totally had no idea what went thru my mind...

second time when i notice i had a gap in my front teeth...tho not noticeable but it's enough to kill me and leaves my soul in depression for 2 weeks or so~
Warning: shall not be read by anyone with a gap in their front teeth...

of all the places is somewhat acceptable but the front part~
luckily i wasn't born with it, i just don't like it~
hating it...gosh~ reminds me of this ss guy who thinks i'm his girl after knowing him for 3 days~ o.O; his was like a mile wide? nightmare...not like i judge ppl by how they look like, it's just i don't like being pushed around and controlled~ who the heck do he think he is? ppl like this are going to be ignored indefinitely~

i died the third time today when i had power chain on~
barely 2 hrs the pain is crawling back...on top of anything why does gargling hurts like (&#@&#@? anyway...i'm happy with power chain because the gap will close~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
had to sacrifice with pain...i need glucose drip and a week off frm that dreadful place...
but the color is nice~ orange...

ijou~

lil' fangirl~

car broke down~
happen this morning...
problem with the engine and mechanic-san once told me not to drive if there's sound coming out~
someday your destiny is either blowing up my face animating a real life version of a bloody saw or FD scene in 16D...or i'ma gonna crush you someday for screwing 24/7~
buy me a car T.T *sulk in a corner listening to Kaimu*

enuff of rant~
when i reach home somewhat in one piece, i saw Brett replying my msg~ OMGness...
today i'm one happy lil' fangirl despite wat happen in the morning~
support TMOOH =).

ijou...

mixed emotions mixing like a smooties

My cubism shirt arrived~
*w00t* *w00t* but it's so freakin' big that i decided to wear it as pajamas instead~ it was S~! never imagined it to be that huge... and comfy...
i bought this shirt because i like the designer's concept and the label is very meaningful~
The Monument of our Hearts (tmooh.com) feature an upside down heart logo that seems upside down to people but to the person wearing in, they'll see a heart, themselves...
reflect how we should appreciate ourselves~ and the founder is Brett~
i was wishing that he would be featured in Survivor Season 20 as heroes...but that never happen tho he's basically a hardworking yet out of radar player...or those PD-nim just cut him off when he's plotting evil plans~ nah...

baby tako is in a coma~
*sobz* his heart failed and just wouldn't start up... *cough* those who have no idea, tako chuu is my laptop *cough* *uwaaaaaaah* yada T.T
and now i'm left with the sloooow panda (desktop)
i know i name everything i own...and even had a future name ready for an electric guitar...how abt magnae? and an electric piano, ring ding dong (watever ever)...anyway i'm still depressed cuz there's a lot of things panda-san cannot do...like moving around the house, load youtube vids, cannot play restaurant city (*yada*), watch dance vids...ijou ijou...but then do i even have the time to do all that?
aniki, onegaishimasu m(_ _)m please revive my baby tako~ and i won't abuse it anymore. . .

things happen in drama...
might as well happen in real life...maybe that's why people have the idea of putting it in drama...unless it involves medium or watever alien...anyhow, i still like District 9~

things like two person never get to see each other even if they're in the same place passing each other, really happens~ i felt like the viewers at time...

my C.N Blue day~
i think i spend the whole day listening to C.N Blue's song...I'm a Loner, Y,Why... , and Love Revolution~ it just keep repeating itself~

Y, Why...
it's an english song written and composed by Yonghwa...it just give somesort of 'tears on my guitar' feel, bitter sweetness that fills the mood when you're walking on the streets looking at people being their busy-self~ or when the wind caressing your face while you're taking a stroll by the beach early in the morning...and it's in english...it sound kinda mellow yet sweet~ i love the guitar behind...

nothing works out anyway...
#my baseless confidence is baseless indeed~

it crashes down

very literally when the idol he's balancing falls off~
my heart follow the doll crashing hard on the floor...
i'm a big fan of Survivor and Brett in Season 19 of the show~
he just have to be the remaining true blue Galu member against the others and stay till the very near end...
was excited when he won the 3rd immunity challenge in a row to keep staying in the game~
awesome~

i really like his vision in The Monument of Our Heart~
i'm getting one for sure...

Blackhole R update (day 5)
day 5 already *cries* i notice my tooth is like it's oxidized o.O; i left it on top of the cabinet to remind the nightmare i went thru...pondering *why oh why~* (drama-ing)
mischievous me once took a bite on it and it basically feels like ceramic bathroom tiles...lolz

anyway the hole...it's not that deep compared with day 4...or my imagination is being positive? I only dare to look at the wound on day 4~ =.=; it's just blood clot~ it'll dissolve eventually~
and the after treatment follow up was unexpected...dentist-san told me not to eat hard food
*guilty of chewing on apple and gingerbread on the 2nd day~ and drinking with a straw that subtly ruptured the structure of the clot~* (drama-ing)
it's not like i'm immobilize (?!) on both size~ but this week and the weeks to come it's not gonna be nice...i've given up on food~ i should have glucose dripped into my bloodstream instead~

at first i thought they were gonna sew the wound with a dis-solvable thread and that i can finally experience the wonder laughing gas can do (as seen on EHB~ maybe seeing a Xray suit hanging like somesort of armor on the wall will crack me up or so)
but none of that happen...double the bummer~

today's gonna be a lucky day~
ijou~