i've lost my soul. . .

where are you~
i need some time to keep calm and write a proper OOR appreciation post later~
for now. . . Toru appreciation time~
this guy wrote Living Dolls. . .i can't =_=
that's one of my fav song EVER~!!!

crazy guitarist~
nande konnani atsui~ (LOL)
my failed Jap version of 'wae so hawt'~ 

i can't. . .

i was planning to stand in the middle but that's everyone's fav spot since taka will be there. . .
i had to stand on the right side. . .right in front of this crazy guitarist~ his headbanging. . .pls don't let me start. . .when i saw Taka it feels unreal~ T.T
Toru didn't sing much. . .i've forgotten that he actually rap in their old songs~ that voice. . .but it's hard to play as perfectly as he did if he rap~ but that voice~ dayum. . .

what are you~

my friend told me abt this show. . .rocker making kakigori aka ais kacang~

please~ ROCKER MAKING AIS KACANG~ lol i can't. . .

Toru put IKA~ effin' seafood in his ais kacang. . .!!!
and also ham (?) wrapping watermelon~  that ais kacang should be some fear factor challenge~
he's like a guy who doesn't know how to cook to save his life from starvation~ wae so precious. . .

in another episode, Taka said the most boring person is Toru~ LOL wae so mean~
he wrote Living Dolls yo~

hello, hello, living dolls~
there was once i keep on putting that as my msg. . .and start to imagine other ppl as living dolls~
just some dolls driving behind the wheel, just some dolls spitting lies in your face etc. . .
to me, dolls are scary~ i don't even have plushies on my bed~
i'd always imagine it coming to life and start stabbing or something. . .or ask me if i wanna play a game~ lol dakara Saw's doll is scarier than ppl chopping their hand off~
ah jinsei wa nandesuka~ but i rather become the doll with no feeling. . .
but isn't it like living in a nightmare everyday to imagine ppl as living dolls? tabun. . .

emo~ bye-yeom. . .

OOR~♥

Keyboard-smash-inducing band~
incy bitsy preview of their new song, The Beginning
♪♫ Just give me a reason, to keep my heart beating~♫♪
*sobz* i can't. . .
seems there isn't any reason to keep my heart beating until 20. . .

let's have all the fun while we still can aite~

it's tomorrow. . .i can't. . .=_=
see you my love~♥

oppar. . .

Start attending their world tour. . .soon
=_= i just take a peak at the setlist in Taiwan~ and i can't wait. . .
they didn't perform Mr. Gendai Speaker in Japan but they perform it in Taiwan *le sobz*
the list is quite good~ everything i hope is in there is pretty much in there~
let's keep calm~ *what is keep calm? izzit something you eat?*

annyeong~ ^^
having mental breakdown like Infinite on weekly idol~ i cannot stop not LOL-ing~ =_=
Jang Dongwoo is wreaking my bias list~
i'm still wondering why Jang Dongwoo is still not my INFINITE bias~
i swear he's a hoarder~
i've forgotten that namu is the bad arsh B-type namja too~
he deserve the number 1 spot frm the way he threaten his chaser and let his target slip thru like a boss~

Grandpa Gyu~
after hearing for like 3 million times ppl calling him grandpa (and calling it myself), i have come to a mental state of thinking (?! what did i just type !?) that he is a grandpa~ =_=
anyway, he did get last place for 3 weeks in a row~ anyhow, you will always be my Number 1 *cheesy~*
his hobby is speaking Chinese~ (i have to admit, his china accent *if that's legit* is definitely better than me~ i can never fully understand or imitate china accent. . .it's stressful to listen~ it's also stressful to open fb and see everything in chinese~ *mental breakdown #02*)
i can only speak an accentless mandarin i pick up from all around the place. . .
my friend would wanna vomit blood when they speak with me~
but Kim Sunggyu, wae i no hear u speak anything more than "da jia hao, wo sher jin sheng kwei"?!!!!!

side note. . .one day my friend told me Kris is from Canada and i ask her if he can speak cantonese? LOL he can. . .with those hk accent~ even though it's only "tai ka hou~ ngor hai Kris" lol *dayum biased*
i still think Kris should promote in Exo-K. . .wae no put chinese member in korean group?!

otanjyoubi omedetou~
today is my fake birthday~  puhahaa. . .
even so, i'm still 20 days older than heihei~ dayum~

arghhhhhh~ having mental breakdown *sticks head on the wall* LOL~
L's been living in the perfect world for too long. . .welcome to the reality~
bbyong~ =_=

wae~ wae~

Start walking the world tour~
when i saw the title i was thinking maybe my country is part of this world~
but i don't really know any One Ok Rock fans~ let alone who wanna bring a Japanese Indie band here while big shots like SJ, JYJ, Bbang, Beast all just skip my country like it doesn't exist on the map~ ain't mad~ #justsayin'~
they're coming to Singapore in June~ *purease let me die*
i need to see My Energy~♥
since it's near. . .maybe i should make a porehbar arone trip there just so that i've at least saw One Ok Rock once in my lifetime~
there's too many songs i wanna see live. . . but i'd like to listen to My Sweet Baby live~ kyaaa. . . .they didn't sang it live~

♫♪live as if you die today. . .♪♫
                       c.h.a.o.s.m.y.t.h~
to go or not to go~

they're back~

One ok rock new release~
purease let me die~ so awesome. . .my energy~♥
recently i'm so tired of everything. . .
i wish i don't have any feelings so that i can finish my work without feeling tired & bored~

Mr. Gendai Speaker~
live version is awesome~ i think my past life is really a ninja cuz i like to stay ninja~
don't really wanna let other ppl know how i really think, feel or do~
i even stop sharing so much stuff on fb after ppl ask me abt the stuff i posted there~
i don't like to discuss stuff that other person know nothing abt. . .
my life doesn't only revolves ard the stuff i posted~
♫♪ Nobody can find me here, this is my secret place no one knows~♪♫
blog used to be somewhere nobody can find me so i posted tonnes of stuff for myself to see in future~
but who ask me to share the link elsewhere? i'ma gonna go ninja when i have time~ FMProcrastination~

Pierce~

lol~ what a sad song. . .
live version is so beautiful T.T

the slow track in their album is always awesome~ his ex-gf (?) is so lucky~ look at those sad song he wrote (for her probably)~ My Sweet Baby, Wherever You Are and Pierce~ and it's nice. . .so dayum sad~  

OOR don't really sing much abt love~ i'm not a big fan of love song cuz it's pretty much the same (c) secret

although i listen to alot of bubblegum pop song which revolves around nothing but poor soul either being dump or longing for love or off the same genre~ that is someone's illusion~ btw Kaimu is a great song too~ are you a gold fish living in a fish tank?

feelings is not needed because there's tonnes of work i need to finish~  all i need is numbness towards the tediousness of this much hated pt. . .*bleh* wanna watch the whole DVD~ kyaaaa. . .
ONE OK ROCK, WAE U SO FREAKIN AWESOME~
jitsu wa しにたい

damn stats~

i'd like to think nobody read my blog
then i can write watever that flashes in my mind as i type very mindlessly~
if you know me personally, pls do not tell me u read my blog~ it's kinda stressful~

there was once someone commented abt me fangirling on fb~ i don't discuss that stuff with non-fans and i doubt u will ever understand what i'm really saying anyway~ and my Yozm has a lot of my rants and poking @cbhs00 everyday (if i remember to check it) lolz~ and i like anonymity~

i like to say watever been bugging my mind~ just a way to clear stuff that's clouding my mind~

recently
breaking down. . .it's very cloudy and my mind is very tired~ sometimes i just wanna disappear and never come back anymore...
in the mist of being clouded by the stuff that's been bugging my mind for the longest time ever, Jang Hyunseung make me smile for a moment~ (mian my dudu) kyakyaa~ that's a lil' happiness... for someone like me a lil' happiness will last a long time~ watever right?

Sleepyhead~
omomomooo~ find this uber funny
"Recently individual members of us have different schedule, therefore we would all have an alarm clock of our own. However, Hyunseung could not even hear the alarm that he set himself , the alarm kept ringing , which caused the rest of the members to be woke up by his alarm but only hyunseung who is still sound asleep. Unless all of us scream his name or shake him vigorously, only will he wake up."
^ i think everyone been thru stuff like this...well, sometimes my alarm clock sound sounded like i'm dreaming~ so unreal~ so i refuse to wake up...

there's still stuff i wanna tell...
but it can't type it here now cuz i don't know how to begin...it's been bugging my mind for the longest time ever...i'm very fucking tired with everything~
"I can’t hide who I am. I can’t say things I don’t mean, say that I like things I hate, or hate things I like. And more than anything, I can’t lie to myself" Key
^ so true... i love quotes~ bwahahaa...

*tears of joy* i think i heard Answer is Near...
but when i listen to it, it sounded different from the teaser...i think it's probably another track from the same single...but that's definitely One Ok Rock i'm hearing~ kyaaa why don't you just release the MV to cure my brain from further being clogged with mindless stuff mainichi~
soujikini shigoto no koto wa daikirai-tte~ other wise i'm perfectly fine~

let's sleep for 12 hrs tonite...kyakyaa~ oyacuuuumiiii~ =).

say my name

One Ok Rock~
please save my soul from being engulfed in the thunder storm of a series of retarding matters~

Silly...ignore button is always there for you to press...i shall read more on running~
will I be winkless like Lee Junho?

btw,

Lee Junho is fail too~
hahaa... Khunnie is awesome capturing all those candid pic and sharing it with us~

don't get it wrong when is say so-and-so is fail...it's not that kind of fail anyway~

ijou~ tonight gonna fringe~

*squelllllllllllz*

^kindly tell me what does that mean~ cuz it appear in my mind like in a random kinda way

my love...

~♥♥♥♥~
it's out
i got it
my One Ok Rock boys are so freakin' awesome

Nobody's home
so true *sobz*
but the skit at the back is so cute...
especially when Taka shouted "Please be quiet!!!!"
then his tone change 180 degree after that~

Wherever you are
so sweeeeeeeeeeeet *melted down the drain*
i am here...whoever you are~ *maki is fail #999*

Back to the real thing~
tho i don't want to rant but i need to~
i don't know if it's a norm / culture for some people to waste other people's time
or just plain productivity fail....maybe a lil' bit of the two, mashed up in a chronic level kinda way and wa~la~ (don't ever wanna imagine how it's like be immune with it)
forget it, never in a million years will i get immune or be satisfied with whatever that is the standard~ the song Riot really sing what's inside my mind~ (one ok rock awesome) kekee

feel so empty and so tired~
Riot

omg...Taka wrote about fake smile~

m'kay back to what need to be told...
see, there was once i rant heap load about time being wasted...
i don't know what the hell is wrong but i was given THE SAME FREAKIN' FILES again~
what's worst is that i lost the earlier file that i edited...everything just went into a blackhole...

omg blackhole...please suck me in~ hahaa...

World Cup~
at first i wasn't going to watch it...but after listening to PM's world cup song...my spirit is lifted (lol) my bad for leaving my determination fura-fura-ing in between of random coming choices...i probably need some sleep~ major english fail... *sobz* but rather than using what is known, i rather try some other way~

Maki heart One Ok Rock to bits~
Chansung is in danger... (lolz)

cause nobody else is going to be like you~

my love...

~♥♥♥♥~
that itself makes it sounds like an awesomely written song.
my latest discovery... Ring Wandering
One Ok Rock's new album is out~
been Jibun Rock-ing for like 1-2 months now...
new album means

new songs~!
KANZEN KANKAKU DREAMER LIVE ^^
less savings *ouch*

definitely gonna buy one copy~
love em' to bits~

this is hard...but seems like my type of song~
Ring Wandering...random part~ eager attempt to translate it...probably lots of mistakes~ =.=;

bridge (love love it~)
今何を君は思って　何を感じていますか?
What's in your mind now? How do you feel?

そして今自分に何が出来ているか答えられますか?
So can you say out what's in your mind?
Nobody else is going to be like you

1st pre-chorus
もう難しいことに興味はないし持つ気もないけど･･･
Not interested to continue doing something that is tough...

とりあえずはみんな必要とされてるってことにしよーよ!
But then everyone just has to do it!

そう　例えどんだけアホでも バカでドジで間抜けでも
That's right, no matter how stupid, idiotic or foolish it is

ほらキミはちゃんと呼吸してこの瞬間を生きてるよ!!!!
But if you try to grasp things properly you can go thru it!!!

1st chorus~
cause nobody else is going to be like you

And nobody wants to live one more time

そりゃそうさ!!もし生まれ変わろうと!!また君になれる確率は
Yeah!!! If you can change to another life!!! You probably can

神様以外に知る由ないし　もう一度人間として
knows something out from your destiny. Starting another point of your life.


こ の世に生まれてくること自体僕らには分かりゃしないよ
Being born in this moment itself, we didn't understand it at all...

em...doesn't seems to end well huh? kanji is muzukashiiiiiiiiii~ =.=;
well, i just wanna say あそこはあたしちょっとバカってみたいですね.悲し いな *sobz*
It's okay kamo~

no doubt they are...

my love...

~♥♥♥♥~

One Ok Rock's Jibun Rock
"I don't have to lie to myself"

honestly i wish Taka wouldn't head bang so much...
but his fringe and haircolor is owh-so-(*0*)-♥ lolz
new album will out in 2 week or so and... My chansung mug is here (but not really)
have to pick it up from the post office~

they are my heart and soul when things aren't right~

The simple thing is not so easy...

...even so, should not sway and blend with the mass
doesn't fancy strolling behind what others generally chasing after
it's tough for the time being to be sane thinking about what i want not to be swayed
ya' know, money and stuff~ (jitsu wa chikara ga takara~lol)
but always keep in mind not to stood at the same level
for now i will wait for the day...
with my 0.5% patience...
*fighting*

~I am a weed~
starting with nothing but will continue swaying and growing, stronger by the day...
translate: deep... ^^ by none other than Channie, maaa, isn't exactly but something like that~

and no, i do NOT own a quote book...despite the stereotype of a libra
but there are tendency to be a sucker for quotes like those in Criminal Minds...
those that suddenly goes "woah~" (it wouldn't be un-base since my fellow libran friends is like that too)

how do i train my brain to remember quotes like Dr. Reid?
how to quotes exist?
like this? 'The simple thing is not so easy' TAKA.
lol...my mind is full with One Ok Rock's awesome lyrics~
making people ponder on stuff...

like...

to be the living doll or make others the living dolls?
i couldn't decide...but i love the term~
i like a lot of unique stuff written in One Ok Rock~

Challenge of the Week...
read Taka's diary~ gosh... it's full with words (kanji T.T)~ compared to other members which is short and sweet, Taka's kinda different. this is the guy behind a lot of One Ok Rock 'experiment'

can i call it experimenting language? like what he said do not put a meaning in something and just perceive it according to what you think and mix it with something else and eventually become something different ("woah~" right?)...this guy is awesome, he makes me sound intelligent (lolz~ shameless self-praise...but you never knew what i've been thinking).

ijou~

oppa-rel saranghae~

ONE OK ROCK - 06 - Koubou.mp3
Super heart the english part~

Chansung Wonderland for the day~

maybe all magnae can think off is food all round the clock, thus the babo keep on biting ppl~
owh...i like 2am magnae too~ don't cha think Jinwoon will be the magnae of One Day?


the most epic was magnae sitting at the bottom of the table having fun in his 16D world~
i first notice him when jay pushed him to the side and he literally side jump back on track~ o.O; and being fidgeting all the time~ lolz

time to sleep~ w00t w00t~

Chansung Wonderland~

lol...what a total rip off~
rabbit hole? wonderland?
Hwang Chansung totally have his own universe here in this lil' corner called Chansung Wonderland~
anyway~ i bought my mug~ *dance around*
Quote the culprit of CW "You must be crazy to be crazy"
he read a lot of books (so freaggin' rare thus so hearted~)
darn i need to get that book and make myself finish it~
today i saw someone holding a copy of Singapore ghost stories~ (ya' know, those ghost stories compilation~ i used to read those...it's like "wow, ppl still read those nowadays?")
recently i wanna get those 'top 10 most notorious criminal' autobiography...or a copy of national geographic magazine~

*this is meant to be uber random frm now on*

Laptop-less week...
one word "dreadful" sums everything up~
Tako please come back...i basically don't care what's inside no more~
i couldn't do much with an old school desktop which couldn't even watch youtube vids not that i have anytime to watch vids at home...lagging is his hobby i guess~

well, the everyday...
it felts as if i'm doing something normal for the sake of it being done
not that ideal that i had in my mind before going in...
my ideal is perfection, their ideal was efficient (so fucking wrong...but for the sake of how the sentence flow) gah~
what a Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer~ huhuu... yeah, it was a song title~

still couldn't decide who should be the living dolls...the writer or the world?
i'm being sucked into the world of bizarre yet unique One Ok Rock songs~ their lyrics is one of the most interesting that makes you think over and over again...what's sets them apart is their theme or personal touch in a song...can't wait for their next album to come out~

YangYang...
this is the first time EVER hearing someone calling Taeyang that~
maybe his boycrush on Taeyang is too deep~ (wat the heck?) lolz
come to think about that, i never call anyone with a double name like that~
gosh...calling Taeyang like that is so not right~ kekee...

end of randomness...
ijou...

listening to One Ok Rock

will definitely find some treasure...
every now and then...you have to love them x).
recently i found 'Koubou' from their Beam of Light album...
love the change of mood in this song
still need some time to digest the lyrics...yadaness
probably a "don't care what you think, i'ma gonna do whatever i feels like" kinda song
with a pinch of "U" beaming me with hopes *assuming* ...

my fav verse...

[I said “no one'll make it what I'm going to do
Don't call me crazy, nothing bothers you”
I was breathing heavy to break away
“Don't tear me up any more”]

no only it's in english *thank god*...it's their signature "whatever u" song... x).
m'kay i totally made that up but they're awesome, awesome... totally love the vocalist masterpiece...

May wishlist
- Pieces of You by Tablo...
it's a book written by Tablo~ yeah, everything sums up...this guy is awesome~

- Status Anxiety by Alain De Botton
curious as to what kind of book Chansungie will read~ gosh...the synopsis sounded deep...lol... such a sucker to Chansung curiosity ^^;

- Chansung Kiss Me mug
a sucker for Hwang Chansung...

- 2PM tumbler
double the sucker for Hwang Chansung...no, i really need a tumbler...it just happen to have "What time it is, it's 2pm" letter on it...art~ x).

- 2PM's mini albums~
arienainess-level-of-a-Hwang-Chansung-sucker...no, my friend is going to korea~ and it's arienai cheap over there =.=;

- Ticket to hollywood bowl to see Hwang Chansung and the boys
will never get it since it ended already...Khunnie uses blackberry~ m'kay...

m'kay, should stop wasting money on Hwang Chansung and save it for a backpack trip or buy a lomo cam T.T

ijouness~ maki *hearts* taka's song...