kyaaa~ guess i'm not going~

boohoo~
what's the point of asking meh?!
so sick of empty talks~
this is why i don't really like it when ppl keep on talking sunshine, moonlight, stars, universe, galaxy and blackhole~ in the end nothing ever happens~ do not tell me if you don't mean it cuz i might believe in you~
whatever~

imagine turning the tv on and u saw...
your hamster~ kyaaa. . .
every time i saw Namstar, i don't feel like eating cuz he's so skinny yet greasy~
i think he burn all his calories by being greasy~
as if aegyo-ing and putting 'phan = yeochin' is not enough, he even flashes his skinny abs~
hamster is also skinny~ he used to be chubby like a guinea pig...now he's reverted to his original size...which is a hamster~
please take all my food~
p/s: i see L warning Inspirit not to look at other guys~ i also know where he get those greasiness frm~ *fake smirk* (c) nae conspiracy~
p/s 02: most B are pretty greasy~ Namu, Seobbie, Kyung, Seungie~ (i'm not greasy cuz i don't have fans~ kyaaaa) (c) nae conspiracy~
but the new channel repeats everything for like 2-3 times a day for a week~ o.O;;;


♪♫Niga iseo yaman yeogi ga Paradise-ing♫♪
i don't have their God-like precision on the beat cuz i'm no Lee Howon~
with the undying spirit driven by Lee Howon, let the repeat begins~ kyaa~
(c) dear writer, wae-am-i-not-your-bias #02
there's a lot of potential bias wrecker in the team~

everyday~
re-defying the purpose of living by experimenting day and night~
guess there's no need to care about some strangers i will only meet once~
getting pissed is only a waste of energy i could use to think and do something better~
no more f-s are given. . .do well~ kyaaa

(c) dear writer, wae-am-i-not-your-bias #1
ft #02















 ☆ ~동우씨생일축하합니다~ ☆
everyday i'm asking...wae this babo cheonjae is not my bias~ his 'stay calm' voice is very lovable jyan~
love both of their raps in Tic Toc~ and a lot of english lyrics they put in their rap~
but kindly look at your awesomely cute leader~
i can't see his eyes under the sunlight~ *pls allow me to die~*
  
i'm in...inspirit~ lolz

an explosion of cuteness~ 
hehee~ aren't they cute all posting Namu's greasy message? his greasiness is incurable~ kyaaa~

ijou~

why all of a sudden i'm tweet tweet-ing in korean?

i'm treating you as my guinea pig
because you're growing hamster pouch on your cheek again~ *weeee*
*delusional*someday you will reply meh*slash-delusional*
someone from Thailand read this blog, i assume you're stalking only to be disappointed that stuff i talk abt are hard to understand even to fellow human~ because i love living in ninja world and speaks alien languages~
and i do talk a lot about you Jang Hyunseung. . .this guy need some love~ i'm giving him some of my ninja love~ *throws flying dagger*

mad~
yesterday i had the soundest sleep ever since forever cuz i'm back to ma' room after they took forever to finish renovating my room~
what i'm mad is that i spend hours cleaning the dust in my room and today it's dusty again~ the living room is dusty, my desktop is dusty, the stuff i properly covered is dusty... it's back to dirt hole again~
don't you have brain?
particularly hate it inside out, outside in when they come on weekend~ =.=;
and they didn't even lock the main door~! *speechless*

don't know why i like this pic a lot. . .

attentive and eerie-ly looks like someone i know but i can't remember who~
he just look so familiar yet i can't remember who~ OTL brain, stop this~

from the very beginning since i ever remember him as a person, he always looks familiar but i can't remember who he looks like~ 당신의 누구 세요?

tired~
hate cleaning but freedom is near if i finish it as soon as possible~ =.=;
i had a leopard + zebra + cheetah + tiger print bed sheet (all in one~!)~ arienai~
Jang Hyunseung must have love that alot~ but nah. . . it's a cute version of those funky prints~
i don't like animal prints~ i didn't even buy those~ but i use it anyway cuz it's a cute version*

*very important remark~ i don't like funky animal prints~

bbyong~

damn stats~

i'd like to think nobody read my blog
then i can write watever that flashes in my mind as i type very mindlessly~
if you know me personally, pls do not tell me u read my blog~ it's kinda stressful~

there was once someone commented abt me fangirling on fb~ i don't discuss that stuff with non-fans and i doubt u will ever understand what i'm really saying anyway~ and my Yozm has a lot of my rants and poking @cbhs00 everyday (if i remember to check it) lolz~ and i like anonymity~

i like to say watever been bugging my mind~ just a way to clear stuff that's clouding my mind~

recently
breaking down. . .it's very cloudy and my mind is very tired~ sometimes i just wanna disappear and never come back anymore...
in the mist of being clouded by the stuff that's been bugging my mind for the longest time ever, Jang Hyunseung make me smile for a moment~ (mian my dudu) kyakyaa~ that's a lil' happiness... for someone like me a lil' happiness will last a long time~ watever right?

Sleepyhead~
omomomooo~ find this uber funny
"Recently individual members of us have different schedule, therefore we would all have an alarm clock of our own. However, Hyunseung could not even hear the alarm that he set himself , the alarm kept ringing , which caused the rest of the members to be woke up by his alarm but only hyunseung who is still sound asleep. Unless all of us scream his name or shake him vigorously, only will he wake up."
^ i think everyone been thru stuff like this...well, sometimes my alarm clock sound sounded like i'm dreaming~ so unreal~ so i refuse to wake up...

there's still stuff i wanna tell...
but it can't type it here now cuz i don't know how to begin...it's been bugging my mind for the longest time ever...i'm very fucking tired with everything~
"I can’t hide who I am. I can’t say things I don’t mean, say that I like things I hate, or hate things I like. And more than anything, I can’t lie to myself" Key
^ so true... i love quotes~ bwahahaa...

*tears of joy* i think i heard Answer is Near...
but when i listen to it, it sounded different from the teaser...i think it's probably another track from the same single...but that's definitely One Ok Rock i'm hearing~ kyaaa why don't you just release the MV to cure my brain from further being clogged with mindless stuff mainichi~
soujikini shigoto no koto wa daikirai-tte~ other wise i'm perfectly fine~

let's sleep for 12 hrs tonite...kyakyaa~ oyacuuuumiiii~ =).

i dream about it all day and night too

if. . .
cramping one year worth of practice to two months...
next year is 6 years worth of practice~
i don't mind spending 10 hours a day in the studio with 3 hours of sleep and 10 hours working~
and 1 hr to spare
right now it's just pre-school level~

English garbaeji rebel~
t/n: English Garbage Level~
lol~ ^^ i'm surprised he know such hard term~
or he just direct translated from korean?

nothing is more depressing than this~ like srsly?
while typing this, i heard a familiar melody~
When this door closes live by Leader Magnae~
hurts so bad seeing you play so well~
and magnae's dream finally came true~

sprinkle your magical dust on mua~
bye-yeom~

it's tough...

where are you who said 'onjaena i'll be there'?
you better join twitter or i'll ask someone to finish all your ice cream~ 
^ what being said do not and will not make any sense~ 
on the edge of jumping from a cliff float~ 

i will die if you let me floating on clear water in the middle of the sea
i do not like the calmness of clear water, what's more in the middle of the sea
i wanna ride the waves~ stop asking me to float on calm water~ 
i rather jump off the float and sink to the bottom than float in the middle of the sea~this sea is not even a rough sea like what we saw on national geographic~
help~~~~!!! today is very mindless~
if it wasn't for that green luggage, i would've paddle myself to somewhere else with bare hands~

my phone is dying~ the battery keep on draining like every 12 hrs~ O.o;  

The colorful streets~  
i like big buildings~ not like sky scrapper kinda big building but over-sized building with high ceiling and tall doors~
it makes me look small. . .
it's good to be small again. . .
i kinda love hate that place tho~ 
i wanna fly. . .

bye~ 

sipping coke day and night~

na na na na na na~
you can see i had that song playing on forever re-loop in my brain~ imagine the agony~
not to mention i got my stuttering from him...
know why? 
cuz. . .

"that that that's okay, get get get get away" Say No
"Li-li-li-li-li-li-te-Lightless~" Lightless
"tto ttoto, saengak halsurok, deo deo deo maumi ji chyeo" Mystery 

that's a few i can remember for now~ shall go learn Korean now...

Indecision and delays are parents of failure
^ what an awesome quote~ am a witness to it every now and then...
however, not my indecision in small matter~ not me *innocent*
i'm watching a great show~ not entertaining tho~

I 'heart' dancing~ 
omgosh~~~!!! so-wanna-dance-Beautiful-in-front-of-the-ocean~ lolz (bad time management~)
everything moving to the music is nice...need a new dance academy now~

The agony of waiting~ between yet another nothingness hence the wasting of my precious time or something that i've been waiting to do all these while so wait a lil' longer to reap the fruit it bears~ nothing ever feels right there~

bye~ 

what's for lunch~?

off lunch and food~
not a big fan of food in general~ *kill me for being a Malaysian where there's delicious food everywhere*  
if u ask me what to eat, i'd say macha gelato, ice blended green tea or eating in a nice cafe~ which none of it is real food~ it's the atmosphere that makes it matter...everyday doesn't matter cuz i don't have lunch buddies *how sad~* 

and quite hardheadedly stubborn with what not to eat~

don't like instant noodles or ramyun~
don't like any sorts of bread~ 
don't like main meal that's sweet in the evening~ 
don't like stuff that's too salty / sweet / bland~ 
but i still think i'm easy to feed (lolz) 

i think i don't like flour~ 
with braces on (and have to add one more rule~ no curry) eating is even more troublesome O.o;
annoyed when the mamak keep on insisting that i should have their curry gravies~
am not tempted and have no interest in tasting it~ and aren't you even sick of asking me every single time i'm there? even i get sick of saying no~ 

thinking of what to eat every afternoon is a nuisance~
shall pack own lunch soon =.=; (what a no life kinda life to be staying in one place for 10 hrs)
it'll be a mental torture i can tell you already~
which is why i choose to eat out despite eating alone~

see, i'm not the only one who think ice cream makes a great main meal~ 
ice cream boy is the same~!!! and i don't get why ppl refuses to eat ice cream cuz he wants a main meal *cough*DJ*cough* m'kay, batpingsoo~ is ice too~!!!  (c) random stuff i observe~ 
can-soooo-eat-batpingsoo-for-lunch~ 

but thinking back...DJ is kinda cool *STARry eyes beaming with lights with mouth wide open staring at the blank space* (c) daydreaming emoti-words full with exaggeration~ 
in case you don't get it... it's (*0*)

random: 03...don't hit the kids~
reading tweets on how DJ would hit one or two of his members while dancing on the stage is also very entertaining~ i think him hitting fellow members by accident = daebakness~ but, @beeeestDJ don't hit the kids~ 

that's all... bye~ 
 

why...probably can't figure it out eh?

NiCole is now friends with Yoon Doo Joon and Yong Jun Hyung 
feel so fly like a G6~ niwayz, it's not them~ lolz still so fly~

solitude~
why do i ditch a stable one to be on a roller coaster?
because i wanna do something i like...
and don't get me wrong, i'm not even near the so-called roller coaster~ yet? perhaps should stay positive
so much i wanna say, so little channel to spit things out~

wsFly~ keeping that in mind just a lil' longer~ 
all else fail, keep chanting this "You're ain't in the game, you're just the cheerleader"~ 
futso one~ lolz~ me-soooo-wanna-go-rock-climbing~ x).

bye~ 

wonderland...everyone has theirs

After endless observation, practical and self-reflection~
wonderland really exist~ omg, right?
i'm in the blackhole babbling nonsense because my mind is not right and fit to be talking abt life since she had been bothered with something she doesn't want to spend even a little unsignificant space in her brain to be bothered about~I'm the type that doesn't like to be bothered by stuff i'm not interested in...thus the mundaneness~ and empty promises just makes everything bad from the start~ but then again, things can change with your own perception... Ignorant is my current bliss~ Lee Kikwang is my cheerleader (lolz~) and furafura grass is my cute mascot~ in conclusion, I'ma only gonna do stuff acc to what i want it to be~ ijou~

I'm a typical indifferent B~ My pace, my race (dammit, it's taken the toll~ i un wanna talk abt that thing...to me, interesting = AIL vert, BMX vert & park *altho isn't really the park i always had in mind*, *new addition* MotoX *insert evil grin* eto...casual cycling?, wakeboard...floating with a board?...etc etc~ 

i wanted to cycle so freakin' bad right now...but the problem is, i dun have a bike *uwaaaaah* bike got stolen by someone =.=;
well, time to get a mountain bike to cycle~

bye-yum~~~~ 

Practice

Practice...
we practice because we are not perfect...#blonote
forgotten how the line flows but that stick in my mind~ i kinda miss tablo and his daily #blonote...
he no longer tweets~ which is such a bummer...
anyways~ fingers soring from all the practice...never been experimenting with a piece of music like what i did to this Beast song~ hehee...kinda mess things up~ argh~ 

Everyday...
aside from my daily self-hypnotize and brain washing self-talk that everything's gonna be fine and okay, if not then do what you're best in doing;- being absolute ignorant and let it flow as long as you did put your effort in it~ it's not that bad (well, you can say i'm lying...kindly read the first line~)

well, kinda disappointed with some lil' stuff~ as in what i heard in the beginning isn't what is happening or what i expected to see...things starting from scratch when i thought the basic idea is there~ basically i don't like to copy stuff~ i wanna make everything as original as it maybe~ hopefully i'll get to deliver my idea out next week~

and my biggest nightmare is there is no other ppl there~ o.o; absolutely hate eating alone from the bottom of my heart inside out outside in~ that's a bummer~ i thought there was going to be someone in the office as what was told...there goes the disappointing stuff~ but look at the bright side...Public bank is just around the corner...opening soon~ (some random stuff like this actually makes me happy putting aside the hassle to drive to bandar puteri *atm with no T&G reload* or ioi *insanely jam n road blocks*)....but i have no idea when it's opening~  

Finishing up my rant...
and i don't like to be constantly asked what i have been doing~
this is a totally new thing that i have no idea what's it's about and don't expect me to be an expert after spending a few days reading about it...geez~ *yawnz* next week my keyboard class gonna be on Tuesday night ^3^ i find that bending ur fingers backward help stretching your hands and it feels less stiff when playing~ that's for lazy people who haven been spending time practicing her scales~ 

time for futurama~~~ 
bye-yum~