Piece me back together when i fall apart~

i'm apart scattered along the pathway~
i wanna sleep~ i miss time having faith in something so much so that the whole world revolve around it. . .and now it's even more scattered than before~ *arghhh*

Time. . .
true everyone has 24 hrs a day.
but half of the time spend dreaming in dreamland~
another half spend doing things other ppl want you to do (a plus if u enjoy doing what you do)~
there goes the hopes and dreams in the non-existing time you never had squeeze into the 2-3 hrs u had in a day. . .
sometimes 2-3 hours wasted on the couch watching retarting shows and being obese~
sometimes 2-3 hours spend shopping mindlessly
sometimes 2-3 hours spend just to unwind after a tiring day
sometimes 2-3 hours spend listening to your fav tunes writing stuff~

i never find my 2-3 hours to spend on reading books with a table lamp~ cuz i never went out to buy a table lamp~ and there's like dozens of books i wanna own. . .like Tablo's book (how can i ever not owning this book~ his american accent is uber hot~), serial killer biography, Death's Acre. . .minna no nihongo lolz~ i seriously need to learn some kanji to leave the packs behind~

even if i have the 2-3 hours, i am sleepy everyday when i'm home~

i wanna live with people who are living warmly and intensively in their own reality and working hard for their dreams. . .
i don't wanna live with people who thinks of nothing but monetary gains from their action staging their own drama~
i'm really not the business material kinda person~ sales give me irks inside out...because i choose not to be among those screwed~ (i'm not doing sales tho~ lolz, my work is fun when i'm looking for ideas~ other than tat it's so-so~)

i'm okay with anything as long as it doesn't make me feel annoyed (my patience level is almost non-existence, ground level to the groundest *watever english*)
because making decision is hard...i'm lazy to think of minor stuff i choose not to care because my mind wanders to different places all the time~

so next week i will sleep at 12, wake up at 7.45~
come back latest by 9 to spend some time living my life for 2 hours. . .
short. . .but hey it's 2 hours! another one hour to watch a retarting show~ lolz

ganbatte~
ijou, random thoughts resulted by sleep deprivation~