pondering the meaning of life~

what is airrrr~ i need some. . .

it is said that committing suicide puts you in the same category as a murderer, making other who might rely on you deprived of that 'help' from you (or whatever that chain of relationship was)

then what about the judges, juries and the prison warden or doctor who carry out the act? what are they? are they not murderers as well? they too took away the life of a living person and deprived of the others who might rely on that person. . .right? in the end, it's still the same~ nothing so noble abt the act and nothing so deserving for the offender~ 'punishment' is just something to make the act justifiable but it's just sweet words~

then what about food? we eat dead animals too~ literally. . .they just come in any forms and shapes but its formal self~ *this can go on forever, like how we destroy the animal kingdom for our existence* blablablaa~

in this forever endless chain, we might all end up in hell (level 8 or something around there) being boiled in boiling blood, burn by fires or whatever. . .if it in any way make any sense, it won't last long. . .imagine jumping into boiling water~ logically speaking, you'll probably die instantly~ die die again? then it's endless cycle of dying~ if soul can feel pain without the body, where all the nerves are~

fear of dying. . .
recently i read a rather interesting article. . .what makes ghost, zombies, shark (?!), diseases~ or whatever you're scared of scary? it's all sum up to the fear of dying~ okay this is deep but it does make sense. . .

the news
owh so boring~ who wouldn't be, right?
our local news is full with politics and their daily drama that has nothing to do with what's good for me (most of the time)~ i want what you're doing for me or what you can do or what you are doing~
not who you want to sue, who pisses you off, who you're going against~
people need to realize that "so-and-so refused to comment on this matter" is not a NEWS~
wtf does that douchebag saying nothing tells me anything?

and recently a prominent figure made a rather brainless comment abt some disaster and that person was quoted in a news and a lot of ppl make comments abt that brainless comment but failed to realize that the problem lies on the reporter and the news editor. . .
just because that person is a prominent figure, it doesn't mean that everything that comes from their mouth is quotable~ kindly use your brain to think if what they said make any sense before making them a national joke~

i'm not trying to make any point. . .
i'm just wondering stuff~
ah~ life. . .hehee~